eating disorders update

[Triskeliongirl]

Nice to hear you have gained some weight and are feeling healthier.

I'll start by saying that while I don't know a lot about eating disorders, I do know that sometimes our mental pictures of ourselves don't match our real images. I had the opposite problem of you. When I was overweight, I would look in the mirror and see a thin person (i.e. myself at my ideal weight) but when I would see a picture of myself, I would see how I really looked (overweight). I wonder if that might help you. That is if you see yourself as 'grotesque' in the mirror, have someone take a picture, and see if that helps you see that you really look fine. Its taken me a lot of time, but now that I am at a healthy body weight, my internal and external images seem to match.

Also, hang around and share. We'd all love to help as best as we can (i.e. in a non-professional support function)! I also hope that I misunderstood the self-harm remark, but if this is a growing problem I hope you are getting good professional help.

I also don't think that stopping cycling is the answer, but maybe changing your goals would help. Is it possible to switch from hard core racing to a more recreational style of riding, perhaps by joining a club with a more pleasure oriented focus.