I need help. I am struggling horribly to do this weight loss thing. I am confident about myself and who I am. I'm 5'8" weighing in at 160 +/- 2 pounds. I have weighed this for over a year. I came into college at 135 lbs and had signed a contract with my Rowing Coach to keep above 150 so that I would be competitive. Although this sounds horrible... I've gone through college for free (my parents couldn't afford it). In college my Junior year I had both knee surgery (keeping me out for 6-9 months) in addition to an emotionally abusive boy friend (for about 5 months), thus creating the 160 that I am today.

No matter what I seem to do, I can't loose this. I really want to be in the 140s... i think that it's my natural weight. I've tried, but not really (does that make sense). As I stated earlier, I am confident about my self, and think that I am pretty... but I also feel as though I need to loose a few pounds (not because of soceity, but how I feel how my body is working).

I know that I could be more active, but seriously, I am working 14+ hours day in my lab (grad school) in addition to recovering from a car accident. I try to get sleep because I know that that is important.

I think that I'm also scared. My mother is morbidly obese and was smaller than me at my age. (My dad is a stick). I'm afraid that I'm going to end up like her.

Sorry for the big blobs of thoughts.. I'm just scared and need somebody to hug me and offer to help me with this.