Oh, this is a cool thread, ok, so here are my goals and doubts, hope you don't mind.
Have a tri (olympic) in 13 days, have had an injured calf muscle, so may not do the run, and only do Aqua-bike. Am hoping that it feels better and can run slow.

May, a very difficult tri with a hilly bike course, did it last year, came in second to last overall, this year would like to do much better.

June, have a sprint, at home, so it's like a training day.

JULY, FIRST half ironwoman at Vineman, am worried since I haven't been able to train as aggressively as I was last year when I signed up, because of calf muscle, hope march to july is enough. Am still an intermediate cyclist, so the 90k is daunting, and the run, 20k, it'll be the first time I ever run that much.

Finally, I have the physical shape to be a great athlete, but for some reason I don't have the competitive gene, and my adrenalin just doesn't push me to go faster, I go at my own little "fun" pace. While, I enjoy "enjoying" the races, I would like to try and do well in my age category (39), but don't have the drive DURING the races, although I train as if I did. Is this just who I am? or is it some sort of "writer's block" in sports?