141, which is this period's goal for me.

I was very surprised by this week's numbers because it was quite a drop for me. Wednesday is my weigh day for WW, and I was down 2.5 from last Weds. I thought to myself - there's just no way I lost this much this week. I must be dehydrated. But it's held since Wednesday and I'm drinking plenty of water, so it must be accurate. I still can't help feeling skeptical though. Like it's too good to be true.

I had to go shopping last night for a formalwear dress for an event this weekend. First I had to try to find a nice bra, because I had to pitch most of my old bras, which no longer fit. I can get my hand inside most of them. This sounds great, but it's actually a little depressing. All the skin is still there, but it's very "loose", since there's not so much filling them up anymore. I always had nice cleavage as a DD, but now the skin is kinda wrinkly in a nice bra. I'm sorry, I realize I'm probably oversharing here, but I hadn't really considered that your skin doesn't shrink really so much as it needs to - so now I have no skin tone. In my early/mid 20s I dropped about 30 pounds, and my skin seemed to shrink pretty quickly as I lost the weight. Now, staring my 40th birthday in the face, I'm discovering that yes, I can lose the weight, but I'm never going to look as good as I did then. That's kinda depressing. IN my clothes I look fine, but OUT of them, not so much.

Sorry to be a party pooper. I really am happy about the weight loss and am grateful for what I've been able to accomplish.

ohmigod, am I a nut job or what. why can't I just be happy about this???

I'm going for a run. I'm sure I'll feel better when I get home....