Insulted and don't know what to do (kinda long)

[shootingstar]

I was good at all the typical college prep stuff so I made the call to give up art and concentrate on something that would make me money. It's taken me over 15 years to realize that might have been a mistake... Now I feel like I'm starting from scratch and re-learning how to see the world as an artist. It's a slow process for me, but I like to think it will all come back eventually, like riding a bike.

And photography is 1 medium to improve visual sensitivity to composition, shape, line and colour.

But for myself, shooting photos, is to maintain that awareness..not an end of itself. It is a gift to compose a photo image before you....quickly without endless minutes of super-duper prearrangement. When your reflexes and senses, are highly alert and in the moment. Applies for doing any art when one is in a passionate moment. This is beginning to sound abit obscene....but to me, it's almost like a trance.. Sounds like some moments of cycling passion.