We took her in as the vet said to yesterday but she had started eating and pottying again last night. So the vet pulled blood work and her levels actually dropped from last Monday. His guess is yesterday morning's diahrea, behavior and refusal to eat was GI distress from all she is struggling with. He did caution she is still in severe kidney failure and most dogs can't function even at her lowered levels. The protein levels are dropping which means other organs are getting stressed. Her heart is showing signs of stress (heart mumur) but he couldn't say it was her time so he sent her home with the gloomy caution of "you may have a week".

She is getting weaker but ate this morning. I wish I could say the same for myself. My stomach is in knots from this roller coaster and DH's is really upset which is never good. So we keep waiting and wondering. We will do the same level of subcu and feeding her until she tells us something changed. Could be tomorrow, could be next week.

I woke up this morning finally at peace. I am thankful for one more day but fatigued too. I talked to my mom and told her I feel like I am saying I want to put her to sleep which isn't the case (she knows because yesterday she got the sobbing call) but I am just tired and wish it were easier. I can tell Maggie is getting weaker, walking and eating a bit slower so I will cherish this evening, hold her and be thankful we got it together. I think for my sanity I should quit guessing how she is feeling.