for everyone who has worried she was fat;
I used to be rail thin, Too thin. I looked like fashion models aspire to be. I lifted weights, I ran for three hours a day- for pleasure. I worked 12 hours a day, 6 days a week and went dancing until 6 in the morning, on days off. I was invincible. I thought all it mattered was to be skinny.
Then, one day I got sick. Then sicker , then my immune system started to break down. The toxic waste near where I live might have been the cause.
For years, I got worse, chronic fatigue , mysterious viruses, near collapse, and no sympathy from family and friends - no one knew why. I still had to work too.
I took up riding. I was pretty weak and pathetically thin from being sick, rather than the strong lean woman I was,so I couldnt ride much farther than around the block.. I could barely run down the street to catch the bus.
I started to train at the gym in cycling class. I watched Lance Armstrong videos.
Then I gained weight.Not much but some. More than I had been for years, so I felt fat but as I get better, I realize nothing matters but your health.
I look at my body and I feel happy that its working, that its strong most days and that I can now ride 28 km after a year of training.
I also feel even smaller, when I stand next to guy cyclists and their big, strong thighs. I dont see many women here but I rejoice in each one I see, because they looks strong too. Im pretty tiny, so Im all thighs and bottom and not much else, so it makes me look funny but every day I look to see if my legs , have hopefully gotten larger!

Id trade anything to be fully well ,even supposedly beong the 'ideal'dress size!!

I know now - rejoice in your body! love it, enjoy its strength and grace and sleek curves.
Be strong, be beautiful and enjoy your ride!