I've always had guys friends who I loved dearly, had a great bond with, but *never* loved them or wanted them in that manner.

Who you are attracted to is not something you can control. You either are or are not. While I find many men attractive, I am not attracted to them. Therefore, I am still single.

I'd rather be single and happy than in a committed relationship with the wrong guys (been there, won't do that, again). I know it's hard to be alone, because I don't want to be alone, but I also don't want to lose track of who I am, again. If I finally find the right guy, someday, then that will only positively add to my life.

I hope you find a way to hold onto this friendship. The first step is for you to redefine your relationship with him, and it sounds like that only needs to be done on your end.