Geez, I sympathize. I just got past the 45 year mark and am reassessing my life and food relationship, also. I don't want to obsess about my diet,weight, pant size, blah, blah, blah. It is just STUPID, and I am irritating my self. It has been a big, fat, waist (!) of time. My grandmother doesn't care about that kind of stupid stuff. I know, eat for health. I am working on it!