dear so and so... you may be relieved, but my heart is breaking. yes talking to you this past few days has helped alleviate some of the shock... but when you made the comment that talking to me is okay because it requires no energy makes me sad i didn't know i was such a burden... last i knew and heard, i was the love of your life. i am sick knowing that tomorrow is one week that the bomb dropped in my home... and i even sicker knowing you knew well ahead you were going to drop it... and there i was anxiously awaiting to see you face friday night... just so you could dodge my hug and say "we need to talk".

fwiw... for all that we shared... i think it's pretty shi**tty you made this decision all on your own