I am going to try to ride tomorrow. This not trying is getting me nowhere except making me feel guilty that I bought an expensive bike that I don’t use anymore. Is there a way when riding your bicycle to forget about one’s problems? Although listening to my MP3 player may work, I refuse to because I don’t think it is safe. Even when I look at the gorgeous fall colors, my mind always returns to that "bad" place. Except for knowing what I need to for safe riding, I wish I could get my mind to go “blank."

I didn’t proofread my last post very well. I meant to say that my friend asked if SHE could pray for me. I figured nothing else was working so why not? She embraced me while she prayed out loud. Having someone like her hug me was very uplifting; she is a beautiful person. Even though we take the class together and use lockers next to each other, we don’t even know each other’s name. I think I need to work on that.

I really love my job; I dislike my manager. My manager has horrible managerial skills. Whether deliberate or not, my manager creates friction among team members rather than comradeship. My manager has the worst communication skills and the best bias skills in the whole world. My manager only sees what my manager wants to see; it’s as if my manager wears blinders. (I apologize for so many “my manager” but I am afraid of what can be extracted from the Internet these days.)