As you can see from my pic, I'm a faller. Every time. But, you know what? Each time I fall, I realize that 1. I didn't die 2. I didn't go to the hospital (like the first time) and 3. I always learn a lesson. Each time I'm just proud of myself for getting back on the bike.
I switched out of SPD's and now have regular pedals and am just concentrating on being one with my bike. Once that happens, THEN I might put my SPD's back on. I'm not in a rush. I'm riding for me, competing (or not) against me, and judging myself against me. So, no worries.
You're out there, that's the only thing that matters!
Keep riding!