Long story short, one of my good friends crashed very hard about 10 days ago on a trail I ride regularly. I cleared three water bars (small jumps) then looked for her behind me. She wasn't there. She seriously landed on her face. I didn't see her go down, but I ran back up the trail to her week calls of help.

I got her to the ER with many stitches on her cheek, chin and inside her mouth. She crushed her helmet. She had a concussion and took staples in her arm.

So this morning, I was leading a small group in the same area. I originally did not want to do the same trail - wanted to turn before the jumps. Since we were running out of time for one person, I lead us down the same trail. I figured I could push through the sight. I completely and totally froze at the 2nd water bar (the one she crashed on originally). I was so ticked at myself and ended up in tears by the bottom of the trail.

So how do you rid yourself of cycling demons? I'm thinking I will go backwards on this trail Thursday to climb her crash sight as opposed to descending it. Maybe I'll got up, down, up and down again multiple times. Suggestions?