My thought are with you. Several years ago we had to euthanize my beloved Miss Kitty. She was full of piss and vinegar, that cat. I have loved her best. I expected her to outlive me. She developed breast cancer that spread at the age of 15. When it got to where she couldn't get comfortable at all, we had to make the decision, which I felt was the right one, and I felt at peace about it. But I still cry when I go to the vet with my other pets.