I got a grant!!!!!
(There are not enough exclamation points in the world to do justice to that sentence.)
Both my NIH grants were triaged. My new boss' NIH grant was on the edge of being funded but the latest word is the cut-off is up to 10%, higher than ever, so no funding despite an excellent score. This was my last hope before accepting a paycut, it is a small internal grant--but big enough to take care of the part of my salary not covered by my fellowship, and big enough to pay for my rats for a while longer.

Finally things are turning around. It makes me a little nervous...