YES.The rollercoaster could in and of itself exist in a 5 minute period. One minute, I'm awesome, the next minute, I'm afraid.
I have managed to get through this week by pretending it's just something normal people do. Thursday or Friday, check in, Saturday, bike check, Sunday, Ironman. What's so abnormal about that? This week, people put up Ironman signs in their shops... I just say "wait, there's an Ironman here?"
"Stick with the plan" is my other coping mechanism. Just keep reading and doing the plan, don't think about the fact that it runs out in 8 days. I've been practicing "stick with the plan" for the last 6+ months, I'm good at that.
If I think about it too much at night, I actually wind myself up so much I can't sleep. Before a lot of my long bike rides, especially after I got my new bike, I was thinking "I really am doing this" and it'd keep me restless for hours with that "pre-race" jitters, even though the race was far away.
I'm not ashamed to admit I got teary exactly like you describe finishing my first marathon (I don't remember any other events quite so significantly). It was such an amazing and grueling experience for me. It makes me teary just thinking about it, and the same for finishing Ironman - watching OTHER people finish anything significant (to them) makes me teary if I put myself in their shoes. I was clear eyed by the time I found my family, but those first few steps in the finish chute after I realized I finished... awesome... in the original sense of the word.
I have just been working on the assumption that I'll finish. If something comes up that prevents it... so be it. There's another one next year. But, if you train for it, it's doable.
8 days, 13 hours.






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Go to pick up bike... start heading toward work instead. Jeepers. I call it "Iron Brain" -- the weird thing is it's not really a conscious distraction, I'm not really thinking "dang, I have so much to do this weekend," but my brain is apparently doing too many things in the background. Breathe.. relax..