Having just read your other post and knowing that you're suffering from both chronic pain and (given the hotflashes) presumably menopause or perimenopause, have you considered that you might be depressed? I hate to throw that out there because I know that word is rather loaded for some people, but it might explain a few things. If you feel persistently down, lethargic, weepy, irritable, not like yourself, etc., please consider talking to your doctor or another mental health provider. Hormones alone are enough to upset our normal balance. Add pain to the equation and it's more than understandable.
More hugs, Sundial. Be good to yourself.
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