Nothing new to report. I'm just confused about my reactions.
I was so relieved Monday when I found out that I am not at the mercy of my boss's whim, that I have some protection and that I'm not going to lose my fellowship. I thought my stomach problems, sleeplessness, overall stress would go away.

Partly it did, I was able to focus on experiments and get some actual work done. But my stomach is still plaguing me. Instead of sleepless, I'm sleeping a LOT, 10+ hours a couple nights this week. I'm depressed, anxious, nervous, neurotic, irritable...(my poor husband!) Still liable to burst into tears at little or no provocation.

I'm very disappointed. I want the stress reaction to be over, I want my life to return to "normal" (normal is only a cycle on the dishwasher). I suppose it'll take time. Or maybe once we actually get that letter, whether it comes from my boss or not.