Emily,
The fear will eventually fade, I can promise that. You'll never feel quite so invulnerable as you did before, but you learn to get past that feeling. The first time I went back out after recovering from my broken pelvis, I took my mountain bike, all by myself, and went to an easy trail. For me, the fear was riding close to ANYONE. I was afraid to ride with people. I felt VERY vulnerable. Like someone was going to run into me at any time. Irrational, yes, but very real fear. So I rode alone for the first few times until I felt comfortable on the bike again. Whether to ride again or not was never in question. I love it too much!!
Think of all times you have ridden when all went well. That's probably 99.9% of your rides! If you focus on that, instead of the one time when things went so incredibly bad, it will help you gain confidence in riding again.
It took me MANY group rides before I felt comfortable riding in a group again. I couldn't bring myself to ride in pacelines for almost a year. I can do so now, but am SO alert and focused. And don't enjoy it quite as much. Still............ I do it and its okay. I think it was good to face that fear and try to move beyond it.
Anyway, these are just strategies that helped me get back on the bike. Everyone is different, but I hope they help you a bit, too.
Ride the mtb, get out on trails. Whatever it takes to get started again. You will feel blessed to be out and riding no matter where you go.
My best wishes are always with you.
annie
Time is a companion that goes with us on a journey. It reminds us to cherish each moment, because it will never come again. What we leave behind is not as important as how we have lived." Captain Jean Luc Picard