Trying to get out of my funk...

[RoadRaven]

I stll have days where it all seems so wrong, and writing this has set me off, but things are getting better...

Hugs Millie
We were in contact around this time in PMs... My life has been busy and I have neglected to see how you are faring
Its a long journey, but hopefully you - and Veronica - will begin to have more patches of light in your days more often, than those patches of darkness
Arohanui, Rave

[Velobambina]

V--

Many words of wisdom in this thread, particularly LTBC's wonderful advice & words of comfort. I won't repeat what others have so beautifully wrote. Just know that I share the same sentiments and am thinking of you.

[yellow]

V, I have some extra yippee in my life right now, so I'm sending some your way.

[jobob]

Just don't make her run 50 K !

[maillotpois]

Freak.

[teigyr]

I'll ditto what everyone else has said. When I lost my oldest cat, it was the hardest. He had been with me so long and we had been through so much together, I almost couldn't remember a time when he wasn't there.

That weekend, DH (before he was DH) tried to keep me busy. I would just burst out crying for no reason, even if we were in public. I had so many regrets because I had always told G (my cat) that I'd have a house where he could have an area to go outside. When I fell asleep, I would dream that he was in the house. My gym instructor, who just lost her dog, has had the same reaction with the dreams and sadness.

It takes time. Just get out when you can, even if you think everyone can tell you've been crying. It never goes away but it gets better.

[LBTC]

You know, I still haven't figured out why we all try so hard to not cry in public. When we lost our Yogi dog - he was our first big loss, and it was a very difficult situation - I went back to work and, if I needed to cry, I just did. I'd just be sitting at my desk working and become overwhelmed by the sadness for a moment. The tears would come, and slide down my cheeks, like little bits of sadness, regret, fear, emptiness falling out of me. Very quickly, there would be fewer tears, they wouldn't be as hard, they didn't happen as often. Everyone at work knew what had happened, so I never had to explain it to anyone, thankfully.

Like everything else, it gets easier with time.

Hugs and butterflies,
~T~