no I didn't need pushing - thank goodness b/c most of them were so far away they couldn't seee me let alone push me

I am glad I talked myself into it! I tried hard to talk myself out of it but I couldn't

I think some of my problem with pushing is I have either VCD or asthma - 2 doctors 2 diagnosis and when I get to breathing hard I have a little problem getting air in (which is a VCD symptom) so I haven't been pushing hard now I know I can I just have to relax and slow down a little to get my breath and keep going.