UPDATE Thank you all for your expressions of support and comfort. After a day of agonizing and another night of little sleep, we just can't do it. We are going to get Bull and bring him home.

I just can't bear the thought of him with someone else, no matter how much they love him. We have loved him and cared for him for 8 years. He needs to be where he is already happy. This may not be the best thing for us financially, but it is the best thing for us emotionally and I know it is the best thing for Bull.

I don't know about the next thing or what we will do at that time. We'll deal with tomorrow when tomorrow comes.

I apologize for working through this with all of you, but you have helped more than you can imagine. You have helped me come to this conclusion and I think in a way, that's what message boards are all about, people with common interests coming together which branches out to other areas of our lives.

I'm up and ready for work early so that I can get finished and get off and hopefully go pick him up. Much gratitude....Sandra