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It was so discouraging. I got super-negative. All I could think about was how hard I've been working and how I'm still so slow and I'm passed constantly, and although everyone is nice and supportive, it gets old being the slowest and so on. My mind just kept going along these lines and I got very emotional and negative. I just kept getting more teary and tired. I ended up just stopping and turning around (which made me feel even worse). I tried to explain it to my BF, but I don't think he entirely understands how I feel sometimes (he's also new, but is in much better shape than I am and is doing great on the bike). He also just did his first ride without me where he added 20 miles to our longest ride and added a couple thousand feet of climbing. I think this might have gotten me down a little, since I had prided myself on having done just as much as he had (albeit at a slower pace).

Thanks for letting me whine.
Been there. Thought that!

Sometimes... mentally... you lose it. Plain and simple. Stuff starts to accumulate and finally you GIVE into it.

Don't beat yourself over turning around. You did what you MENTALLY needed to do. It's OK. Take a couple of days off the bike... be lazy. You will get a clearer frame of mind.

Trust me, back in August I had a mental break down from all my training. I finally said, "I give", and I took an easy week. Mentally it really recharged me and got me back on track.

Don't be so hard on yourself... take a break and a deep breath. You will be more positive in a few days.