I do not have epilepsy, but I have movement disorder that requires epilepsy meds. I cannot encourage you enough to get in the care of a good neurologist that will listen to you; maybe you can even find a clinic deditcated to epilepsy. They will understand you desire to live your life and work to make that happen.

My first neurologist had me doped up on a medicine that made me seriously depressed and refused to take me off because "it was working". Yeah, I wasn't shaking but I didn't want to get out of bed either. Anyway, I know a couple of epiletics and they are able to do the things they want with minimal restrictions. It definitely is not the best or worst diagnosis.