Well done, GingerGin
Goals are goals and you have made and met yours... fear can cage us, and you refuse to be caged
Do you take a cell phone with you? I find that really helps alleviate my fears.

There is something I say to my students when they struggle or are going through a rough patch and i think it fits here for you too...

Kia kaha, kia manawanuui

Roughly translated it means, Be strong, believe in yourself