A question to ask yourself: Is the flogging you're getting worth the flogging you're getting? Ponder this as you ride. Ponder the day as you ride. Then let it go. It is over with. I sometimes make a list of pros vs cons for a serious situation (sounds cliche, but true), then decide what action to take, and what the worse possible outcome is. Then move forward. Still, in the end, ride, ride until you sleep well, then ride some more.