Bad PMS attack brewing

[Starfish]

However, I will admit to crying at the end of a number of classes. I would have felt terribly stupid about it except that I've talked to a lot of people who've done the same thing. Yoga can help bring emotions to the surface and, in that way, can be very cathartic--in a good way.

Ditto about getting a good massage from a therapist you can trust with your feelings, as well as with your body.

[makbike]

Thanks for all the support and kind words. The hormones seem to have quieted down for the time being - there still is a sense of "blueness" but nothing like it was earlier in the week. I have an appointment to see my counselor this afternoon and I'm looking forward to our session. She has great insight and is so positive. I'm taking myself shopping tomorrow. Time to purchase some clothes that fit before the school year begin in two weeks.

I rode hard last night - an attempt to work off some of the negative energy that had built up in my being. I was exhausted when I got back to the car but I could tell there had been a shift in my mood. I kept telling myself, "since you can't punch him, push his away with each stroke of the pedals." I guess it worked to some degree for I as climbing like there was no tomorrow yesterday evening.

Thanks again for all your support and ideas. It is very comforting to know I'm not alone at the moment.

[uforgot]

Here's something I did when I was in the same situation as you, I scoured the internet (and amazon.com) for trails and rides I had never ridden before. I've even traveled to other states, (KOAs everywhere!) and have ridden in places I've never been. You can leave early Sat or Friday night and get home Sunday. Let the house collect dust, this is for YOU! It worked wonders for me! I recommend you stay away from club rides and other places where your ex is. At least for awhile. No contact, that's the only way to let time do it's work!

[Duck on Wheels]

...I rode hard last night - an attempt to work off some of the negative energy that had built up in my being. I was exhausted when I got back to the car but I could tell there had been a shift in my mood. I kept telling myself, "since you can't punch him, push his away with each stroke of the pedals." I guess it worked to some degree for I as climbing like there was no tomorrow yesterday evening. ...

Ah yes. Forgot about that part. I was lucky enough that we were lowering our basement floor at the time. DH had brought in a big compressor drill and cut the cement into squares. I went down there with the sledgehammer and SMASHED those babies, imagining this and that person's head lying there -- Take that you anti-semitic boss *****! Take that you wimpy dean who can't stand up to her! The cement squares made the most satisfying whoomp sound when I smashed them. Then, when I ran out of cement floor, I got one of those inflatable clowns with a sandbag in the bottom. Too bad the inflatables of Munch's "Scream" had a flat bottom, so I had to go with a clown one that would roll with the punches. It's now "wilted" in one corner of the new basement bathroom. Maybe I should pack it up and send it to you?

[Starfish]

Hey MakBike, glad to hear it! Keep us posted!

[Wahine]

You've had a lot of very good advice here and I would support everything that everyone has said. I do have a little bit of a different angle to reveal. I am trained in traditional chinese medicine (TCM) and PMS as well as cysts are related to problems that can be treated with herbs and acupuncture. It would be worth checking out. In addition to this, being under anaesthetic can misalign your "bodies" of energy - physical, spiritual, mental and emotional. These things can be addressed with a special type of AC treatment called a vital alignment but it's hard to find a practioner that does this. Yoga also helps with this as it realigns the chakras.

As for the exBF, the compassionate thing to say would be that he did what he had to at the time and like LBTC said, you are where you are right now because you need to be there and you will ultimately come out of this a more enlightened person. The other side of me wants to say, "Throw a wrench in his spokes at the next club ride."