Goodbye, my Kallie Kat

[han-grrl]

Big hug to your trimom.

I hadn't realized how much i anticipate seeing my cat, if that makes sense. I guess i get this wonderful feeling just before opening the front door to see her there. Just a feeling of contentment that she brought to the house. I keep doing it, its been a week since she is gone. I am getting used to this new "normal" as I call it, of her not being around. I can't say i am "better" but it is getting easier sort of in a way.

I have been journalling all my memories of Billie, as many as I can think of.

I bought a photo album and have collected her pictures together. There is space in the album to write in, so I am going to write in some of the stories that go with the pictures or just thoughts. Sort of scrap booking, although i am sure the "real" scrappers would shudder at my creation. Anyway, i don't want to erase her memory from the house. I just don't. I have this little wooden ornament and that says "a house is not a home without a cat". She made me feel like home, and I want her memory to bring me the same peace. So that is my own focus right now

Trimom- i have to say that TE has been an amazing place for comfort and understanding and compassion. I felt completely alone when everything happened, and saw SBC's post and immediately felt like there was some one else who understood. There are actually LOTS who understand.

Many hugs to you
and Thanks TE

Hannah

[TriMom217]

thanks all. SBC, I did not mean to hijack your thread with my own grief. Today was not any easier than yesterday. I keep wishing I had stayed with him longer, put it off for....I don't know....not like that would change anything....

Three years ago we decided we wanted to move to NH. The real estate market here in MA totally fell apart and we have not been able to give away our house. George loved playing outside so much, especially in new-fallen snow. We kept telling him how much he was going to love NH, LOTS of snow for him to run around in, to bury his nose in. The sign on the NH/MA border says "You're going to love it here." Well, now we're saying, "he would've loved it there." I can't believe we couldn't pull off this move in time for George to go with us, he would've loved it there.

I washed his dish and put it away. Same with the water dispenser. The brushes are still full of hair and can stay that way for now.

goodbye Georgie Dog