It does get easier.

It is also my personal experience that whenever I am going through a time of grief, if I have areas of other types of grief or pain in my life that I have not dealt with or acknowledged, that the "current" grief will be deeper and last longer.

Just my own experience over the past few years and a number of losses.

Give yourself a lot of grace, and get whatever support you need. I have found support for my grieving processes in groups, with a counselor, and with friends. It gets better. Give yourself plenty of time.