been out of cyberspace,so mig a battle its being!!!47kg.phew,ok 1/2 kg but taken me a lot of anguish and 3 months!!!!!and won a bike race sat-gee the medics so so wishy washy,all theyre interested in is my "mind" and all i want is help and support gaining weight to ressurrect my bike strength!!!!

ANYWAY,been signed by a new team so its something to aim for and a team that believes in me-DONT YOU FIND SELF ESTEEM is the route of EVERYTHING????

and,ordered this today,human kinetics, "disordered eating among atheletes" couldnt get it on amazon so a hefty £32-blimey!loadsa scientific research in it too,so should be able to trick my brain and continue to do the right thing..........i suddenly have a drive and real vigour tp crack IT again!