Dermoid Cyst

[LBTC]

Marcie!

I'm glad your surgery went well, and your recovery is going well, too.

The BF thing sucks, though, and I hope you're following teigyr's advice. She's right. You're fabulous, he's the one losing out and you need to pamper yourself and give you everything you need to remind you that you're wonderful!

Orange and red confidence enhancing butterflies, along with white and blue calm and relaxing butterflies headed your way!

Hugs,
~T~

[makbike]

Thanks guys. I wish i felt good about myself at the moment. As my mom said this afternoon time heals all wounds and though I feel this one is pretty deep I know it could be a lot worse. I simply do not want to end bitter over this - the handwritting was on the wall I simply kept telling myself we would work things out and turn it around for the better. How wrong I was. The hard part will be the bike club functions since we attended those together. I will not stop riding with the club because he walked away from me. I wish I could ride tomorrow for I'd kick his a** on the afternoon ride

I really need to ride to work some of this off but won't see my doctor until Wednesday afternoon. Of course, I'll share with her the fact the I had to tote a 40 lb bag of dog food in my house (I was gentle). She will probably have a thing or two to say I'm sure.

I'll be fine I'm sure.

[crazycanuck]

Grrrrr...Sorry to hear about the BF marcie

Shall we send kit's boot his way? If not, i can send some cold wind via subliminal messages It may take some logistical planning but i'm sure it can be arranged.

Good to hear you're healing well

C

[teigyr]

ahem.....40 lbs?! Bad Marcie! Bad bad bad!!!

Let us know how it goes tomorrow. You are being the better person and I do believe, when you're ready, a proper backside kicking on the bike is in order.

I know it's hard, trust me on this. Be who you are and it'll all come together though it doesn't feel like it initially. Just remember that there are people thinking about you.

Jane

[makbike]

No more lifting for awhile, I promise. I would have asked a neighbor to help but given my emotional state I did not want to be around anyone even if for a brief "let me help" you one. I think everything is okay and will be okay inside - no pain, no swelling, etc. At least now my Great Dane, Gaston, can eat and be happy.

I really don't want to be mean or nasty toward him - there is already enough pain to go around for quite some time. He is hurting just as I am so the best we can do is be cordial and civilized toward one another.

I am going to the ride captain training session this afternoon and yes he will be teaching the class. I will be do my best not to strangle him in front of the other students Afterward, I'm meeting him at his place so I can gather my belongings and we can close this chapter in both of our lives. I do have some questions I want answered before I leave and close this chapter in my life. Time to move forward and not focus on the pain.

[teigyr]

Marcie, how're you doing? I'm glad you aren't lifting anymore Have you seen the dr yet and are you released earlier than later?

You ok otherwise?

Jane

[makbike]

Jane, thanks for checking on me. It has been a rollercoaster ride of emotions most of the weekend and today. I have my good moments when I realize that what has happened with exBF is for the best. I have bad moments when I realize how much I miss him and will miss him. Like today I realized that the big bike event here this year would be different - I would have to find a place to stay for we would not be sharing his tent. I have contacted a couple of good friends and talked with them at length and afterwards I feel better but too fades. The nights suck! Every night before I would go to sleep regardless if we were together or at our respective homes I would say "Good night _____, I love you." Last night I realized that was not a good way to close my night so I simply wished him peace. I picked up my personal items last night. He did not want to talk but finally let me in so we could talk - I had questions I needed answered to help with my closure. Before I left I handed him a letter I wrote, very honest and frank. I don't know if he read it or tossed it but it made me feel better to put my feelings on paper. I've scheduled an appointment with a counselor I've meet with a couple of times in the past for tomorrow afternoon. I'm hoping she will give me some guidance.

I see my doctor on Wednesday for my post-op check up and I'm hoping she will let me out of "recovery prison" soon! I've been good no heavy lifting. I cleaned my house today and gave both of my dogs a much needed bath. Not much I can do given my restrictions.

Life goes on and I'm doing my best to heal both physcially, emotionally and mentally. It will get better I know.

[Xrayted]

Makbike - I'm glad to hear that you are getting better physically. Keep being good to yourself and give it proper time to heal.
As for the exBF, these things just take time, no matter how they end. I ended mine at the beginning of the year. It was as nice of an ending as anyone could hope for, but it still hurt like crazy. Every now and again, it still hits me that I don't see that person everyday anymore and that, even though we stayed good friends, the things we now talk about are far removed from what we could before the breakup.
You will make it through stronger, wiser and more sure of just what you do want in life. Learn from every relationship and build on that and eventually you will find the one that brings it all together.

Good luck and come chat anytime you need to.

[teigyr]

You will make it through stronger, wiser and more sure of just what you do want in life. Learn from every relationship and build on that and eventually you will find the one that brings it all together.

Good luck and come chat anytime you need to.

what she said

I hate to sound all cheery because I remember being awake late at night and letting things all compound. I also remember being in a panic periodically during the day and crying over silly things. I felt lost without a journal because I didn't want to burden my friends so I wrote. It gets so much better though.

[teigyr]

I was going to just PM this but couldn't figure out how to do a picture. Here's my cat that your avatar reminds me of! She was feral and her ear is clipped to show she was spayed in a feral cat round-up. She's still a bit wild and this picture is BAD, I couldn't find the camera so I took it from the cell.