Don't do this to yourself. It reminds me of my mother.

I was the outcast in my Catholic school, and avoid the daily taunts, jeers and pushes of 150 classmates. I wanted to go to the public school, where my neighborhood freind went. When I pointed out that her argument against it, because they were on a different calendar was empty, since my special needs brother attended there. Her reply was that I should just spend a day in my brother's classroom to see how lucky I was. How would I like to be the girl in his class that spent all day with her fingers in her mouth and drooled?

You are allowed to have feelings. It is hard to be different, and to not have your needs considered. I am going through the same thing with my bike commuting now. My women's sailing club meetings are on a very dangerous route for biking, and no bus. And I feel so second class by bumming a ride from other members. But now there are finally two members that I feel comfortable about asking (after about 6 years in the club.)

And if it were a seafood place, you would not have felt like crying, right? So give yourself a break, isn't about the food! It is about feeling that people were not considerate of your needs. And because it was lovely for everyone, EXCEPT you.

So pull out a chair for me, I am joining the pity party.

Mary