I knew the other day when I started this thread that it would benefit me. I needed validation. I needed to communicate with others who can relate. I feel less alone, and I feel the support offered in a multitude of directions to many of you out there who are living variations of this struggle with the "Mom" thing. I have no idea what my mother's problem is. I think she has a personality disorder + decision to be angry and negative 24/7 + serious control issues. I have no comprehension of what a loving mother is like. No one else has ever been this for me. This is one reason I volunteer at the animal shelter. I can give my love and energy and resources to cats and dogs that gladly absorb it without judging me. My mother is too toxic for me to be around. She spewed hate at me till I said, "Enough!" I know I am a positive being. I just need constant reassurance from outside sources because I am always running low on my own inner reserves. I am 47 today. The older I get, the greater the awareness becomes bit by bit.
Make a positive contribution to those around you today.
Barb