Oh LBTC, I can't really add anything, but I wish I could reach out and make you feel better. As you would say... You need butterflys!!
The only way I can possibly relate is when I was pregnant and had some complications. I actually was pregnant with twins and lost one early on. So the doctor ordered me to stop running. That killed me! I would look at runners and be soo jealous. So in a sense I can relate to that feeling you have of DH going for a ride. Hopefully you can get the disease in order so that you regain some of what you had back.
I'm certainly pulling for you!!
Many pretty futterbys (what the baby doll I used to babysit called them) for you!!
Denise