Ah, Indy - exactly!

Two points:

I pondered this a lot because many health care professionals say that certain personality traits are common with people who have Crohn's disease. I can't help but wonder if certain shifts may have prevented the health issues I'm dealing with right now.

And, since I am dealing with this right now, are any of those things that I might have changed, things I can change right now? Yes. I cried last night.

Sounds odd, but I've used a lot of energy for most of my life in "being happy" - laugh a lot, smile a lot, look at the positive; and I've spent very little of my energy honouring the other emotions I feel. Something can be said for how that might affect my health, right?

Here's an interesting thought: I did not realize that I have a competitive streak until a few years ago when I placed well in a couple of mtb races. It gave me a completely different view of my life, especially the pressures I didn't realize that I was putting on myself. Now, had I known about this crazy competitive me, what would I have done? I don't know if I have the answer to that, but at my age (39), and in my state of health that prevents me from "going hard" at anything, it seems extra hard to find ways to deal with that....

And then there's the part of me that says no way would I change anything. If I had even participated in a sport in school, would I have ever met DH??? I mean, seriously, every single action we take has some kind of repercussion. Some of those repercussions are the best things in my life and I wouldn't trade them for anything!

So, as always, my "opinion" comes in as right on the fence. But I have made a slight shift that I'm pleased with. Cry more.

Hugs and butterflies to each of you. It's not too late to build the you you want to be!

~T~