Emotional chaos?

[LBTC]

Oh, ladies, thank you so much for your positive vibes and all those butterflies! Tonight I used the combinations that my former kickboxing instructor emailed to me, and got super sweaty using the heavy bag with DH holding the bag and grinning away. He loves how hard I hit it and how sweaty I get! heehee

Other stresses seem to be reducing, too. DH has a new new job, with a plumber that has to be easier to work for than the last guy, because a sleep deprived lion would be easier to work for. He starts tomorrow.

And the mortgage lady phoned back and she thinks that we will be able to remortgage the rental house so that we can buy out SIL so she doesn't have to sue us and we don't have to sell the investment before we want to. That would be nice.

And my new boss, well, at least I know I have to babysit him constantly. Not my favourite position to be in, but at least he's pretty kind about his scatter brained ness. I think I can get used to.

And I took way more evening primrose oil today. That might have helped.

And then there were all those butterflies, everytime I looked there was another message of support, of compassion, of positive thoughts, and encouragement, that I just can't help being happier.

If I cry tonight, it will be tears of gratitude. Again! Thank you thank you thank you!

Hugs and tons of happy colourful butterflies!

~T~

[Dianyla]

Seconding the aforementioned hormonal and dietary mayhem suggestions as above. It's certainly possible that one of your old foods was doping you up on serotonin (a lot of carbs do this). Also, is it possible you're going through something analogous to a herxheimer reaction?

If you're losing weight due to this new diet, bear in mind that many of the toxins in the human body are stored in fat. (Fat is also estrogenic, btw.) When a large amount of fat is being broken down, a lot of these molecules are getting released into your body to be processed and elimited.

Whatever you're going through, I just want you to know that you're loved and supported and when you break through to the other side you will feel so much better.

[BleeckerSt_Girl]

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[LBTC]

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Thank you Lisa! {{{{{{{{{{{{{Lisa}}}}}}}}}}}}} I love this! It's my new wallpaper!

And if you look at it for a few moments, you'll see why I like to send them out!

Hugs and, well, you know,
~T~

[farrellcollie]

My partner decided to go on a rather drastic diet (from the way she used to eat) and cut out almost all sugar and refined carbohydrates and fast food and is on a 1500 calorie a day mostly meatless diet now. For the first three to four weeks she had panic attacks and thought she was dying, would cry etc. now - about 2 months into it - she is fine - more energy, better sleep, more exercise etc. She believes it was the loss of sugar and just general detox. It was horrible for awhile - like watching an addict dry out -but she is much better now and sticking to her new regine with renewed enthusiasm.

[LBTC]

2 months? Ack!!! I sure hope this doesn't go on for that long!!

And if tonight is any indication, it won't! YAY!

Yes, I do intend to stick it out for at least about another month...

Hugs and butterflies,
~T~

[farrellcollie]

No - she is two months into it now and has been fine for awhile - the first month or a little less was the worse. Actually she seems more dedicated now because she says she never wants to go through it again. She is very sensitive to sugar - one night last week she decided to have a small cup of cocoa and it made her crash a little - so now she is eschewing sugar and chocolate completely (no valentine's candy at all - not even one thin mint)

[LBTC]

Let her know that cane sugar and beet sugar are not the same. I found dark chocolate bars sweetened with beet sugar. I've also been using maple syrup and honey in various recipes instead of sugar. Yeah, not as handy, but nothing else in the diet is anyway.

I had to give my valentine's chocolates away, too

Hugs and butterflies,
~T~

[LBTC]

Seconding the aforementioned hormonal and dietary mayhem suggestions as above. It's certainly possible that one of your old foods was doping you up on serotonin (a lot of carbs do this). Also, is it possible you're going through something analogous to a herxheimer reaction?

If you're losing weight due to this new diet, bear in mind that many of the toxins in the human body are stored in fat. (Fat is also estrogenic, btw.) When a large amount of fat is being broken down, a lot of these molecules are getting released into your body to be processed and elimited.

Whatever you're going through, I just want you to know that you're loved and supported and when you break through to the other side you will feel so much better.

Thank you for your support! I had to look up that Herx thing. Apparently it actually applies to antibiotic treatment of certain illnesses, and I'm not on antibiotics; and it only mentions physical symptoms, not emotional ones. It's all connected, though, so, yes, I am hoping it's part of the healing process!

As for losing weight - I wish! The scale budges maybe 1/2 pound a week. That's certainly not dramatic, so I doubt this is a bunch of fat cells releasing their toxins, at least not specifically....

I may be starved for endorphins for one thing. Most days it's soo difficult to do anything more than walk the dogs, but tonight I did a kickboxing routine and feel so much better. Riding the bike on the trainer on Friday really didn't help much- it actually made me feel worse....so there you go. I guess it's got to be strenuous! heehee

Hugs and butterflies,
~T~

[Mr. Bloom]

LB: I can't add much, but from personal experience, when my mother was diagnosed with celiac, part of the initial therapy included antidepressants. I suppose the body goes through some form of detox...but I don't really know.

Plus, I agree with Lisa...This is the time for seasonal affective disorder from light deprevation and you're in a tough part of the world for winter light. I know that when we first moved to Indiana, I was nearly suicidal (for no reason ) in Jan/Feb...but office window was north facing...once I fixed that, I never had the problem again regardless of the season.

What you're feeling is real, I encourage you to hang in there

[LBTC]

Thanks, Mr.

I saw my doc this week and described it the best I could. He's ordered a blood test that I'll get today. Not sure what all of these mean but he's asked for:
Haematology: Hgb, Hct, MCV, RBC, WBC
Glucose
Serrum Ferritin
ESR
TSH
Vit B12
Folate

My scopes are next Wednesday, so I'll check in with doc after that sometime.

This week I have not had the emotional difficulty of the week before. I've been feeling like I'm fighting a bug, but it hasn't quite got me - the shivers, a little dizzy here and there, headache coming and going, generally feeling feverish (though I don't have a thermometer to check).

The doc also agreed that it is hard for us to tell if this is a bug or if this is more symptoms. And that certainly fatigue can happen with this sort of illness, and that mood can also be affected. We'll be checking to see if the emotional thing happens again and will investigate further if it does.

As for office windows - well, I don't have any. But I haven't for the last year. I usually get outside a few times a day, though, so that's not all bad. When the emotional outbursts were ongoing, I think it was actually sunny out and I was getting a fair amount of time in it. Interesting thought, though, and I'll watch for a connection there. btw, where I live now is further south than where I spent almost all of my life. We have longer winter days here than I am used to, and the light in the morning and at night is now so noticeable it's rather joyous!

Thanks for your concern!

Hugs and butterflies,
~T~

[BleeckerSt_Girl]

LBTC,
I know this sounds crazy, but....get a few plants and keep them near you during the day, with a light for them to grow. I believe that the good live vibes from plants can raise our spirits. Get one for your desk and make sure it has enough light, or make a tiny terrarium and have a littl egrow light over it. Get a couple of plants for your home. If you already have plants in your home, repot them with fresh soil and feed them so they are happy and growing and not struggling along. It might just be a subtle psychological boost, or it might even be more than that.

[Aggie_Ama]

I *think* that might be a comprehensive metabolic panel. My doctor ran one on me when he was trying to diagnose my movement disorder, some of those acronyms look familiar. My guess is he is checking to see how well you are getting nutrients?

You know what sounds silly but makes me feel better? Goofy office supplies. I have this pen on my desk that has yellow fuzz and looks like a duck. It just brightens my mood, I use it when I need a pick me up.

You asked a while ago how my husband was doing... Better everyday.

(((Hugs)))

[Mr. Bloom]

As for office windows - well, I don't have any. But I haven't for the last year. I usually get outside a few times a day, though, so that's not all bad. When the emotional outbursts were ongoing, I think it was actually sunny out and I was getting a fair amount of time in it. Interesting thought, though, and I'll watch for a connection there. btw, where I live now is further south than where I spent almost all of my life. We have longer winter days here than I am used to, and the light in the morning and at night is now so noticeable it's rather joyous!

I'm not endorsing this particular product, but Silver uses something like this in her workshop. High lumen lighting is important to fight S.A.D. - particularly in northern climes. Do some research...but it's a safe alternative to tanning beds...

http://www.fullspectrumsolutions.com/

[Dianyla]

I saw my doc this week and described it the best I could. He's ordered a blood test that I'll get today. Not sure what all of these mean but he's asked for:

If you're interested, here's some basic info about what these tests are for:
Haematology: Hgb, Hct, MCV, RBC, WBC - This is basically a complete blood count to make sure you have all the right types of cells in your blood.
Glucose - Quick test to rule out hypo/hyperglycemia as a cause of your ill feeling.
Serrum Ferritin - Measures the protein-bound iron circulating in your blood. This is the best indicator of your iron stores level to rule anemia in or out.
ESR - Erythrocyte sedimentation rate - can indicate inflammation in the body.
TSH - Thyroid stimulating hormone, this is a very basic indicator that your thyroid is probably working properly.
Vit B12 - Lack of B12 can cause pernicious anemia, meaning your body may have enough iron but it cannot utilize it to make blood cells.
Folate - Deficiency of this can also lead to anemia.

All in all, it sounds like your doc is doing the right thing by checking these various nutrients to see if you have any deficiencies (which are very common with the malabsorption caused by crohn's and celiac intestinal damage).