Thank you, Bouncy! It does help to feel less alone! But I'm sorry for the situation you're in and hope that you can find a way to a better place for yourself!

I've lived in a negative town, worked in an office with terribly low morale, tried to keep biking in a horribly fractured community, and finally DH and I decided to move. It's been a huge change and the only negative is this health issue. On the other hand, the health issue would probably still exist, but the town I was in before didn't have the same facilities so I would probably not yet have a diagnosis!

I think what I'm trying to say, bouncy, is that you owe it to yourself to explore some options and see what you can change so that you can love life again! Even if the only change is to find an hour a week with your camera and your eye and no other distractions.

Good luck!

Hugs and butterflies to you,
~T~