Don't feel guilty about feeling down! I totally understand, as I tend to do the same thing. It's taken me years to come to terms with being chronically sick. I still occasionally curl up under a warm blanket feeling sorry for myself. What I've found is that I usually feel much better in the morning. I'll allow myself the occasional evening at home under a warm blanket on the couch with some yummy treats (whatever I feel I can handle at the time, regardless of calories) and a hot cup of tea and something comforting on tv. Maybe even a sad movie to cover up the fact that I'm sad for a very different reason. Then I go to bed, wake up the next morning feeling tons better. Other things I find helps is to look for signs of progress. Stablilising a chronic illness and brining it into remission isn't done over night. But little steps of progress are evident along the way. For instance, having a whole day without running to the bathroom (or more hours between runs than previously), or noticing that my joints aren't aching so much anymore. Or realizing that I just ran half a block to catch the bus and my stomach didn't revolt (which is usually does when I try to run which is why I gave up running for exercise). Or any other number of little things. Or something completely unrelated to my own health like seing wildlife on the bike path coming home from work or a beautiful sunset, or a good song on the radio (no matter how I feel, I cheer up and start dancing whenever MaisQueNada by Sergio Mendes & Brazil66 comes starts up).

Whatever you do, remember that it is perfectly normal to feel sorry for yourself occasionally. The feeling does pass. Just make sure to take care of yourself!

(((((big hugs))))