I'm on the indigent program at our local county hospital so yeah, it's an HMO of sorts. Just getting in to see the doc is like pulling teeth. I'm just frustrated that I'm either in pain right now and or I'm in pain AND doped to the gills. I called the office several hours ago and of course the doctor hasn't called. The office will close in a few more hours and it will be another weekend confined to the house when I'd rather be riding. Last night I was dreaming of riding to my weekend ride and riding the route that I normally take to and from. I dreamed of leaving the group a bit earlier to get a head start and the riders passing me along the way.
I'm lucky to have any coverage at all, but it seems so many times that every time we need to be seen (wait hours to be seen for a few minutes since they schedule a dozen people to see the same doc at the same time) then wait for hours in the pharmacy to get our meds (often one window open to dispense meds for everyone) It doesn't matter if you've just been released from the hospital, just gotten out of the recovery room after surgery etc, you have to wait to get your meds. They close the pharmacy often before you get out of the emergency room and then you have to come back the next day and wait for hours again. It's just frustrating and I feel like an ungrateful whiner right now. I know there are so many people in worse shape in so many ways than me.. I know that a lot of this is the pain and meds talking and I shouldn't even be complaining. I've just come so far, I don't want to go back to where I was 18 years ago and that's what it feels like right now.