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[annie]

I would usually deal wtih feelings like this with exercise and I can't. .

You said it, right there. Not being able to relieve those feelings makes them seem so much worse. Is there something else you can do now, that you enjoy? Do you crochet or paint or do any crafty stuff? That can help keep your mind off your worries.

After I healed from a broken pelvis, I could not bring myself to get out on the road, much as I missed riding. So I took my first rides, all alone, on a trail. Even when I got back on the road, I could not ride anywhere close to another rider(having gone down in a paceline.) The fear was very real. But the love of riding was stronger and kept me out there and gradually, very gradually, things got better and I got most of my confidence back. I STILL, to this day, over 4 years since it happened, am not comfortable in a pace line. I'll do it, with people I totally trust, but not often. And I prefer not to. You just need to give yourself however much time it takes, till you desire to ride overcomes your fear. Then take it slowly. Please don't feel guilty about not riding! Be kind to yourself. It will all work itself out in time. My thoughts are with you.

annie