Silver is Home

[BeeLady]

Geeze silver - so glad you are home. Right now job 1 is taking good care of yourself; please don't pressure yourself about if/when you'll be back on your bike. That will take care of itself when the time is right.

You are a brave, tough lady. Please be gentle and patient with yourself!


Eileen - I had no idea about your bad wreck. You mentioned an accident, but
I had no idea it involved an SUV and broken bones! I'm so glad you are back cycling and have the voice of experience to help Silver and others.

[silver]

thank you ladies, dang i'm so emotional tonight.

[Bikingmomof3]

((((Silver)))))))
Please give yourself time to heal and allow yourself the emotions. We are here to listen to you. Remember this will take time. Be gentle to yourself and your body.

[latelatebloomer]

Silver, I am so glad you are home and as a human, not a brussel sprout! I wasn't nearly the rider you are when I had my crash (same kind as you, just lower speed, so not so banged up) and I did have to work out some panic. People here really helped out, I took my time but didn't quit. I will always be a cautious rider now - and I think that's a good thing. DH has never gone down, and I hope he never, ever does but I think he's foolhardy sometimes. Hugs to you and Mr.TE

[CyclChyk]

Silver - you have every right to be emotional! Don't sweat the small stuff.

As far as being afraid to ride again, I agree that you will do it at your own pace. Perhaps however, you might feel more comfortable starting on bike specific paths or trails and not on roads with cars.... then slowly as you feel your confidence return, perhaps ride in group rides (safety in numbers). Re-evaluate how you feel at that point.....

Take your time. We'll be here when you need us

[silver]

thank you ladies for listening. I know from past surgeries that there is an emotional breaking point afterwards...for each and every one....I've gone through it....so you'd think that I'd be better at dealing with this.

Even though there was a car involved in Sam's death, there wasn't a car in my accident. Just the road and me. So it's like there's fear everytwhere. last week lying in the hospital bed I would have told you without a don't that this would not get me down ....now I'm not so sure. It's scary to feel this. But it just seems that every time that I start to make progress that I hit another obstacle.
Sorry ....I'm NOT usually like this.

[Dogmama]

Silver, you're entitled to every emotion you feel. The most important thing is that when you are going through hell, keep walking. I think you know that.

[CyclChyk]

Right now, tonite, you are too close to it. And in my experiences, the more you think about it, the closer you are to it, the more emotional you become about it.

The good thing is that you are still healing so you don't have to make any decisions about it tonite. Or even tomorrow. And before you know it, the feelings you have tonite will pass and you will want to ride again. And if you don't, it's OK..... that's the good part about this ~>its your decision to make. Not anyone elses.

[silver]

thanks CC DM and emily. I would usually deal wtih feelings like this with exercise and I can't.

You've done so much to cheer me up. I think that I'll take my narcotics and see it reducing the pain helps my emotional state.

[annie]

I would usually deal wtih feelings like this with exercise and I can't. .

You said it, right there. Not being able to relieve those feelings makes them seem so much worse. Is there something else you can do now, that you enjoy? Do you crochet or paint or do any crafty stuff? That can help keep your mind off your worries.

After I healed from a broken pelvis, I could not bring myself to get out on the road, much as I missed riding. So I took my first rides, all alone, on a trail. Even when I got back on the road, I could not ride anywhere close to another rider(having gone down in a paceline.) The fear was very real. But the love of riding was stronger and kept me out there and gradually, very gradually, things got better and I got most of my confidence back. I STILL, to this day, over 4 years since it happened, am not comfortable in a pace line. I'll do it, with people I totally trust, but not often. And I prefer not to. You just need to give yourself however much time it takes, till you desire to ride overcomes your fear. Then take it slowly. Please don't feel guilty about not riding! Be kind to yourself. It will all work itself out in time. My thoughts are with you.

annie

[luv2ride94]

My crash wasn't AT ALL as bad as yours. but when I had nothing to do it was worse cus thinking about it. Find a new puzzle or something to do instead of having time to do nothing but think. I kinda helps for a while. At least it did for me I hope u feel better everday! ~ KT