People ask me on a regular basis about adopting and don't understand why
DH and I don't want to. We agree, it is just not for us. Somedays I too feel that EVERYBODY and there dogs are pregnant and/or have babies. The "role" that I was most proud of was being a mommy. Most people can't understand why we don't try for more. It's hard to tell them that we will not do that to another child because our daughters life was hades on Earth. I have even had people tell me that they would rather have lost children at an early age, then have them grow up and know that they are going to hades. One of the days that really affects me is Mother's Day. I have tried to go to church on that day, but the preacher always seems to preach in honor of the mother's. It's hard for people to understand that I don't feel like a mother and haven't for several years. That is one day that I choose to stay at home, away from everone. The emotions that you are feeling is something that those of us that want children and can not have children seem to feel. It's hard to believe sometimes that there is a plan for us. It's even difficult to believe that somehow I didn't do something to "deserve" this. I try to remember that Megan was given to us for a reason, that had she been with someone else, she would not have lived as long as she did (we should have lost her on her first Christmas, but by the grace of God, we had her for 2 wonderful years).
I feel that those of us that so desperately want children but can not have them will be blessed in other ways.