I am not one of those people who likes other people's babies either. But mine were mine. And I Knew that they were my responsibility from day one, and until they were able to do for themselves, I made many sacrifices for them. It was a no brainer. You can't do kids justice if you're not there for them.
I had daycare, I had to go back to work when they were 3 months old, both of them. And I didn't brag about their bowel movements, you're missing the point on that. You should fall in love with your children, and then their achievements will become very important.

If you're feeling resentments you're not ready. When we had kids, i too was clueless. TOTALLY clueless, but just like a mamma cat, i figured it out quick.

We got high once when my first son was about a year old. What a disaster that was. you just can't be a good mom and be half-conscious. That was a learning experience, and I never did it again.

Your children are only small for a very short time. Then they grow up. How do you want to raise them? Do you remember how it was for you? (I sure did, and I planned on not repeating history). I have spoken to some who have regretted the lack of attention they gave to their children. No one has ever regretted (to me) the real-time they gave to their children, when their children were children.