Lori,

I am so saddened to hear about your the loss of your brothers.

I've used cycling and other forms of exercise as "therapy" for similar loss/grief in my life.

I think it really does help.

Going "hard" can help release some of those feelings of anger and pain. If I may quote a NIN song --yikes!-- ( I kind of prefer the Johnny Cash version) : "I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real".

Being alone on the road or trail gives me time to think.

I'd like to think that those who love us want us to keep doing those things that bring us some peace and happiness.

I wish you hope, courage and yes peace during these trying times.