Who am I & What is this Handbasket?

[LBTC]

Yeah, I don't know how you get someone else to change the way they think, I just know the things that have changed the way I think.

A broken shoulder - a lot of sitting still and being amazed at the wonder of a flower

A dog going through cancer and cancer treatment - when your dogs are your kids this has a big impact. Lots of putting off other things, learning how to keep me healthy enough to cope, and losing myself in flowers some more

My husband having a cancer scare which, thankfully, turned out to not be cancer. Understanding that I have the strength to do what I have to do, and being so happy I don't have to prove it.

Depression caused by being black balled by the cycling community where I used to live for standing up for ethics. Trying to let go of things I can't control and getting lost in more flowers.

And most lately, the mysterious belly problem that we hope to be diagnosed by the CT scan next week. Trying to turn the frustration that this body that I had finally trained to be strong and fit that now needs more rest than an old man, into some kind of healing inspiration. Re-learning half-learned yoga lessons, and more flower saturation.

So, really, what has it all got me? I love to take photos. Check out my blog if you like. http://picsiechick.blogspot.com/
or PM me to be added to my picture a day list. I email one out to over a hundred people virtually every day, hoping that some smiles and positive energy reach the people who need it. Besides, one day those babies will make me the money I need to survive. Until then, I stick with the safety of the full time job.

We can't plan how we will learn and grow. We can only be receptive to the lessons that come into our lives.

In the meantime, I'll think of you both surrounded by butterflies. Perhaps there will be some surrender to the sound and stunning beauty of it.

Namaste,
~T~

[Dogmama]

When my husband went through the cancer surgery and multiple hospitalizations due to complications, I spent every day & night with him. I would go home twice a day to feed the dog & cat & let them outside. My world shrunk down to my home, the hospital and the route that I would drive. This went on for months.

I recall being jealous of people who got to get up, go to work and lead normal lives. Even Monday mornings looked good to me.

Guess I needed to start this thread to realize my blessings. Thank you from the bottom of my heart to all of the incredible women who posted.

T - my 14 year old German Shepherd (also my substitute kid) is having difficulty getting around due to a neurological condition. It breaks my heart every time her hips give out and she lands on the floor. I understand completely. I've cooked for her for over five years because she has IBS (just like me!) Occasionally, there are evenings when I'm making her dinners for the week and I send DH out for Subway!

[LBTC]

Dogmama, I'm sorry about your "kid", it's never easy to watch them helplessly from the sidelines....

I guess that I didn't make my own message very clear, though. My dear dog survived 17 months after his diagnosis, and passed away nearly 6 years ago. It was life changing for me, so it made the list. The only item that I'm still living, we hope will be solved once the CT scan explains it. All the rest I experience the results of on a daily basis, but are part of my herstory.

I hope your German Shepherd has a gentle time of his last years. You're a wonderful person for being there for him.

And how is your husband doing now? When were the cancer treatments?

hugs and butterflies to you....
~T~

[Dogmama]

And how is your husband doing now? When were the cancer treatments?
hugs and butterflies to you....
~T~

He is doing well. His cancer was diagnosed 2.5 years ago. We went through a year of surgeries, chemo and multiple hospitalizations. The power of prayer is amazing.