As far as relationships go, none are easy. I accept that fact... there's no perfect people on this earth.......if you are perfect, please identify yourself so I can worship you in person!

I am speaking from a broken heart, and from an angry heart when I say this! I know later in life, I'll look back on these feelings and retract this statement:

When I put my happiness in someone else's hands.......I set myself up for pain. When I base my future on someone else's actions, reactions or involvement........I set myself up for pain. When it's all said and done........it's just me and my God at the end of the day! I have to learn to live like that and not let ANYONE else be so involved in my happiness that it shatters when they let me down. And everyone WILL let me down at some point in our relationship. It's inevitable.......I'll let others down. I just have to learn how to put it all in perspective!

Some of you know about the past year and how hard it has been for me......... well, I was just beginning to see the light between the trees. I was just beginning to let go of the cause of my pain. I hadn't cried in at least 2 weeks! Milestone! I am right back where I started: I am part owner of a business with my father and my brother. (DON'T GO INTO BUSINESS WITH YOUR FAMILY OR FRIENDS......IT WILL RUIN YOUR RELATIONSHIP) My brother and I have the daily responsibility of running the business and my father has the responsibility of making our lives hell! We have 10 employees on the payroll and this week, I have to let everyone go and try to sell the business! My brother and I questioned some decisions that were made without consulting with us (it started out as a partnership, now it's a dictatorship) and my father took his money and support and left the business! We have to make payroll, he has spent all of the money hiring new people, giving people raises and moving people to other cities to start a new territory.........now we're out of money and my brother and I get to be the BAD GUYS!

See, I have learned from this experience that no one gets this much trust from me again that I would stake my future on them! I can't count on my father to do what's right, and I have to clean up the mess for it!

Talk about being in the depths of depression..............I can't see the light of day.........again! But this time, instead of being sad.... I am MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD!

Thanks for letting me spout off!
Kim in TN