spazz --

sometimes it's amazing to me how many people have dealt with serious depression. A lot of your story sounds familiar to me, though to a lesser degree. I didn't lose quite as much weight (did get asked if I had an eating disorder by coworkers, though). I couldn't sleep until I'd played video games to exhaustion to get my brain to shut down; various feelings about the breakup left me miserable about myself.

I finally saw a therapist and a psychiatrist, but oddly enough, the thing that seemed to work was to make the mistake of getting back together with my ex. He had turned into a right bastard, and my anger at what he put me through the second time around has burned away any feeling of guilt or regret. I just hope, for his sake, that I never lay eyes on him again.

Life is weird. I'm glad that things are getting better for you. It's great that this board can be a safe place for you. I think it's a safe place for a lot of us, in different ways.

I hope I'm not being too intrusive by offering you a hug. *hug*