Honestly - very scary cartoon lady.

See the thing is - we DO talk about everything. Irritable bowel, saddle irritation, so-and-so looked at me funny and I wanna kick there @$$, etc etc. We are very open about things that make him my best friend....except the 1 thing.
I think that I scare easily too. I'm kind of a "learned my lesson the first time" kind of girl. Get a bad reaction once, and I'm unlikely to forget what got me there. I shy away from conflict, so my problem, I guess, is that I want to bring up the subject - but not sure how. I really thought I was approaching it gently the last time, but....it obviously wasn't as effective as I'd hoped for.
Goodness. Between work, the upcoming move, finding time to cycle, money issues, etc....my intestines feel like one big knot. Seriously, my lower abdomen has been making so much noise lately - and at work too. It's embarassing. I am pretty stressed out (though staying composed) so could be that after the move, etc...things may just snap into place. Our free time gets spent talking about all that we have to do - it's hard to talk about anything else. We're similar in that way - hard time relaxing when there's things that need to be done.
I really appreciate all the advice I have gotten. It really helps to hear other's perspectives, their past/present situations. When you don't have a lot of friends, and rely on fake realities - it's hard to ever feel normal, you know?
Thank you thank you thank you - to all of you!