Broken Collar Bone and Depressed

[maillotpois]

So sorry about your accident!!

I am two months into a six month period where I can't ride for medical reasons.

http://forums.teamestrogen.com/showthread.php?t=7836

I am now a little bit over the whole "glad I didn't die" part (still glad, of course) and am teetering on the verge of self pity, with occasional lapses into out and out self pity and occasional crying. I would have ridden 6000 miles this year. I would have done at least three more big events, including a 500 mile race with a friend.

I have been running and hiking, and signed up to do a marathon next month.

But it's not the same as riding. You're not alone. It STINKS!!!

[bcipam]

I went through the depression not once but twice (when I originally broke my collarbone and 2 years later when I had surgery to repair it). The first time I didn't stay away from exercising all that long. Within two weeks ( as soon as I could manage wearing a bra somehow) I was in a gym and using a spin bike to keep my legs moving. After the surgery, the doctor forbaded any activity except walking or hiking so I stuck to that for 4 months. There are ways to keep moving, you don't have to ride a bike.

I will be having my colon surgery this coming month and am told no exercise at all for 4 weeks. That sucks! But I do have a million hobbies to occupy my time. Right now really into beading. Find something to d0.

[Duck on Wheels]

In my life depression seems to have had two sources: loss of control (like when I was in hospital with my first baby and the neighbors took over furnishing my apartment for us to come home to ), and physical trauma (like when I had abdominal surgery, or when I broke my ankle ). With a broken collarbone keeping you from doing what you want to do and are accustomed to doing, that would probably entail both trauma and loss of control in one "swell foop". So in my lay opinion, it would be normal to be depressed. One way out, for me, would be to take back control over my life by working actively on the trauma, for instance by choosing some other activity as a work-up towards getting back on the bike.

[hellosunshine]

broke m,ine and shoulder,i found that the ensuing insomnia fed the depression.ALL BAD TIMES DO PASS.i also found aftter 3 weeks i could suddely measure the improvements,i seemed to be on the mend,i wickedly rode my turbo 2 hrs a day from day one of the accident(and did a pb within 6 weeks,10 miles,322mins,39 secs)founs getting into swimming hard but i also broke my shoulder.WALK.get into the open air,ry and find someone that willl drive you new places and then walk,see the countryside!i was on the road within a month,climbing was hard,BUT YOUR BODY IS FANTASTIC!IT SELF HEALS,START PHYSIO ASAP, U WILL BE SURPRISED HOW YOU STIFFEN UP.IT WILL GET BETTER,I UNDERSTAND THE DEPRESSION,AND FOR GODS SAKE EAT,I STARTED RO DIET WHICH WAS A STUPID STUPID IDEA.

[Fredwina]

I'll echo everyone else here - the main thing is to work thourgh it. It's been 4 1/2 weeks since my accident. I've got full range of motion, although I still can't put much wieght on it. I know it's hard (and sounds like your injury was worse than mine), but you've got to see the light at the end of tunnel

[gobles]

Re-injured collarbone, shirt was caught on the bone sticking up and pulled the two bones apart. Doc says this will only add one week to my recovery time, but I am already seeing alot of improvment. Thank you for all the support.

[Raindrop]

I agree with the other posters and add the caveat that since exercise increases our serotonin, lack of exercise results in a decrease which means no more natural happy drugs.

Although you can increase your walking and alternative exercises which will result in the same increases in serotonins, it could also mean an opportunity to get into some meditation that balances out our (cyclists) need for high energy movement. Studies have shown that the same exercise induced results can also occur from slower, meditative programs.

Or, you may get the same result from great weekly massages.

Just throwing out ideas to you. Get well soon.

[margo49]

What xrayted said
Orthopedics is one area of medicine that you can get results, altho' it does take *time*.
A forgotten thread in the fabric of the space time continuum. (Think denim - it is 3 threads: warp and weft and a third one diagonally that you can only sort of see and don't really take into account but that is what makes such perfect jeans)
Actually time is the space a lot of things happen in (and won't happen without)
'nuff philosophy
It's big but it's do-able

[Xrayted]

The easy way would be to clam up, feel bad (then worse) and self implode over this setback. So... first of all, I commend you for coming on here and talking this over instead of just crawling inside yourself. I also believe the women on this forum, which astound me on a daily basis with their compassion and caring for each other, are definitely the ones you can count on to lift your spirits at a time like this. Many have been through similarly tough situations and can be the guiding light you need. Most of all, what you are feeling is normal and totally understandable.
Certainly, one of the reasons you're feeling bad can definitely be related to not getting your energy out on the bike. Like most of us, I'm sure part of your joy of riding comes from taking a lot of the things that build up on you throughout the day and leaving it out there on the road. The endorphins (your own internal "happy drug") from the physical activity are certainly being missed, too. Also, you're probably a very independent type, like I suspect many of us on TE are, and now you're most likely having to depend on others to help with things that we all take for granted as "simple, daily" tasks.
It's hard having so many things change all at once, but try to find something to embrace during this down time. Find an alternative workout that is "friendly" to your current physical situation. What other hobbies did you give up to bike that you could pick up now in the interim? Spend more time with those people that maybe you've put on the back burner.
Yeah, this is a life altering event, but only in the short term. You are going to get better, you are going to ride once more and you are going to be happy again. So be proud of how strong you have been, how strong you are and how much stronger you will be after this. And above all... SMILE! It's hard to be down with a smile on your face. I know you have it in you. We all have it.

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And just to set the record straight on how "full of it" I really am on this subject... Ok, here it goes... 15 years ago while riding my Harley, I got blasted by an uninsured motorist (18 y.o. kid) who blew through an intersection (playing chicken with his buddies) and took me out like rag doll. I spent 2 1/2 years (yeah, YEARS! ) in casts on my left leg (knee down), lost 3" of bone that I had to grow back (still 3/4" short), 9 surgeries (including bone grafts, skin grafts, lots of hardware), 100's of stitches and staples, and untold # of xrays. I lost my job, all my savings, and yes for a while, I lost myself. For the first year and a half, they still didn't know if they were going to cut my leg off. Just couldn't get it to start to knit. I had 10 hrs. a day of shock stim for a year before we saw some progress.
For a long time, I just saw no end in site and I definitely had my melt downs. Somewhere along the line, it occured to me that I was lucky. I didn't have spinal injuries, brain damage (well, not that they've been able to prove) or a host of other things that so many others have experienced from cycle accidents.
Eventually, the last hard cast came off. It took me a year to walk semi-normally (no crutches and in a regular shoe) and do things like curl my toes and get my ankle to move. 15 years later, my foot, toes and ankle still swell like a football everyday. My friends affectionately call it the Frankenleg because it looks like they took a couple of chunks of unmatched legs and sewed them together. hehehe But, it's still there and it (mostly) works. Oh, it just loves those hills!
But... I got through stronger, happier and more determined. Before, I was a shy, introvert. Now, you can't shut me up. (I do have a way of making a long story longer, don't I? )

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The moral of the story? This isn't a contest on who has/had it worst. We all have things that make us question our resolve and push us to our limits. These are opportunities to realize how strong we truly are inside. There is good and bad in every situation. It's up to each of us to find the good and just concentrate on that. The rest will take care of itself.

All my best to you (and all of the others out there who are going through various things right now) and take care!

Cindy