Hi gals,

I did a time trial this past weekend and when I compared it to my time last year, I improved 3 minutes. Everyone, including my coach said it was an amazing improvement, but for me, it's just not good enough

I still came in last place in my category. I still was in the bottom portion overall of all the racers. I don't really care what others think, but I think I just suck!

It was super windy too this year, so I know I did great, but I still feel like a slow poke. I'm stupid too because I didn't ride in the drops...I rode the hoods the whole time and I don't use aerobars, etc. I'm so not a time trialist...

I'm trying so hard not to think I suck

It's really my first year of properly training for road racing. Others tell me I'm on my way, but I guess I'll find out when I do the first road race of the year in a couple of weeks. I am so used to being dropped and seeing my name in last place...It's hard for me to shift into a more positive outlook about this year

I keep pushing myself out of my comfort zone to do better, including riding in group rides and other things like working on my bike skills and handling...I've come a far way, but it is hard to be a perfectionist...I'm hard on myself I guess...

Feeling crappy,
Lisa